“Therefore Jesus, lifting up His eyes and seeing that a large crowd was coming to Him, said to Philip, ‘Where are we to buy bread, so that these may eat?’ This He was saying to test him, for He Himself knew what He was intending to do. Philip answered Him, ‘Two hundred denarii worth of bread is not sufficient for them, for everyone receive a little.'” -John 6:5-7
Why does Thomas always get the bad reputation when it comes to doubting? Whenever we reference doubt in Scripture frequently we look to good ‘ol doubting Thomas. And rightly so, he wouldn’t believe that Jesus had raised from the dead unless he was able to empirically prove it through his own senses. But why do we always point out this one disciple in this one instance?
Here in John chapter 6 we find Jesus preaching to five thousand people. And as they are probably not near a town as it would have been difficult to preach to five thousand in the small towns around Jesus realizes that these people will need food. Jesus knows what He is going to do ahead of time, but He decides to test one of His disciples; Philip.
Jesus asks Philip to get bread, Philip balks at the idea as he realizes that there’s not enough money among them to get enough bread for everyone to have even a bite. In the midst of the conversation Andrew enters in with a boy that has a basket with five barley loaves and two fish. But even Andrews has some doubt. Jesus takes the food and begins to share it among the people and by the end there twelve baskets full of leftovers.
As I read this text I immediately asked myself, “How often does God test me and I doubt?” It’s a good question to ask because I find myself in a lot of different situations where I’m tempted to doubt that God is in control. God asks us to have faith.
Philip had seen Jesus perform miracles before this. He knew what Christ was capable of. And it would have been easy for Philip to believe that Christ would do something that would blow everyone’s minds. Yet, he doubted. Despite the previous evidence that he had seen, he doubted Christ.
Faith is not based upon a lack of evidence. Faith is based upon an abundance of evidence. I have faith that my wife will love me because she consistently shows that she loves me. I have faith that God will take care of me because He has consistently taken care of me. So when those times of testing come, remember what God has done for you and believe that He will take care of you.